Lost in Pain

I have been lost in my pain.  The world is so much bigger than me and my pain.  While i have been a victim, I have victimized others.  Not in the same way, but through my pain I have failed to see the delicate sweetness of the day. I have seen the grand beauty, the magnificent sunrise and the beautiful field of flowers on a glorious spring day but the soft moments, the gentle exchanges between others that i love have been lost to me.  These moments, these exchanges would have enriched my life if i had been able to see them, hear them. I was lost in my pain and closed off.  I feel a deep sense of sorrow now. There was judgement where there should be no judgement.  When i am quiet…the lessons begin.